Grateful In the Uncertainty

For the past year I feel as if I have been in this type of continuous prayer, with everything our family is going through and so many things up in the air, I feel like I could pray at every turn of the day.   I try to pray daily for my family, my husband, my little boy, myself.  I look around and I am scared of the next steps, and also a little excited.  I want to enjoy where we are at, wherever that may be.

In many ways this time of uncertainty, this year where we have no idea what is going to happen, how things will work out, what we are going to do, has been one of the best years in my life.  I have gotten closer to my Heavenly Father as I have had to lean on Him for help, worries, strength.  This year has also been a great one for our marriage.  I don't know if it is because Mark and I have a common goal, and know no outcome, or what, but the feeling of our marriage being strong is wonderful.  I am so blessed to have that man.

Even if none of what we are thinking works out, even if God's will is just for us to stay here another year or two or however long, even if it seems we did all this work for just a time of waiting again, I am ok with that.  In fact I am grateful.  Because without this year, so many lessons would not have been learned, so many blessings would have gone unnoticed, so many opportunities would not have happened.  I am so incredibly thankful for what I have come to call "The Year of Uncertainty" because it has taught me so much more in such a short amount of time than I could have ever dreamed.  Yes, I am thankful indeed, and would do it all over again if I had the chance.  If nothing else I have learned that God is faithful, and He loves us beyond compare.


² For great is his steadfast love toward us, and the faithfulness of the Lord endures forever.
Praise the Lord! Ps 117:2